Trust

Why is trust so difficult? I mean really. Do I really think I can control anything? Why is surrender so hard??? The song by Rich Mullins, "Hold me Jesus" comes to mind ... "Surrender don't come natural to me I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want Than to take what You give that I need And I've beat my head against so many walls Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees " So, Lord ... I surrender to you all of it -- the basement that has cracks in the wall, the pressures of my 2010 life as a woman, the crazy graduate class, my 150 hour practicum - all of it. It's yours Lord. You know why - because you DO know what to do with it and I just act like I do. I love you so much Lord. Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Lord my soul to keep - if I should forget your love before I wake I pray you'll remind me before morning light. xoxox