Why?

Why is it that I stay away from talking about God? It's been quite a few days since I've written and I'm sorry. I've hesitated to write and I'm not sure why. It's probably because I've not really taken the time to be with God. It seems the only time I really just sit and think is .... well, when I'm going to the bathroom. Sorry for "too much information," but that is when it's quiet and no kids are around. As I thought I realized how desperately I longed for time to myself and time alone with God. I thought back to my "single" days when I had quiet mornings with coffee and God. Now, my mornings are filled with making lunches, fixing breakfast, rushing around and speed skating out the door. I realized that I don't ever want to lose the time I have now with my kids, but I do need to figure out how to get more time alone with God. I thought about getting a hotel room and just staying there for an entire weekend all alone - we don't have the money - so that won't work. I thought about getting up early enough to have time with God alone - that would mean getting up at 6 a.m. and I'm not so sure about that. Then I realized .... it's never going to be convenient - not like it was when I just had to worry about me. It's going to take sacrifice on my part - going to bed earlier and getting up earlier. I still even thought of the excuse - but the Olympics are on - I don't want to go to bed early - I'll start this next week! Can you hear the whine in my voice? Yadda, yadda, yadda - excuses, excuses, excuses. Sorry that there's not a lot of closure on this blog entry. I'm still figuring out how to choose Him over me. I guess that's always a process. I guess that's why I need to remember it's not about the destination, but the journey. I guess you should remember that too. Be encouraged. We are all trying to get to Him and lose ourselves in the process. :)