Does He Change?

Thanks again friends for allowing me to process the events of the last two months through this blog.

Setting: Jan. 19th - Franco and I had found out I had cancerous cells in my body. We knew surgery was in my near future. We did NOT know how invasive or contained the cells were at this point. We were on very shaky ground and were trying to hold it together.

Feelings: Sort of like being in a washing machine. The world was swirling - we were trying to act normal. We went to Longhorn for lunch, stopped by Lifeway, tried to enjoy the beautiful day off together, and then it hit us. The uncertainty - the sadness - the wondering - the realization life was taking a sudden, unexpected turn.

I think it must've hit us both at the same time, I suppose that is what happens after 10 years of marriage. We were in the van, heading to pick up the boys from school. Franco had bought Francesca Battistelli's CD at Lifeway. He put the CD on the song "Beautiful, Beautiful," and then we began to cry. My first wave of tears were despairing and full of pain resembling the feeling of an animal caught in a trap. After the song began to wash over me I realized something ... GOD had not changed. He was the same God he was two weeks, two years, twenty years, two thouand years before this day. Upon this realization, (which HAD to be Holy Spirit induced)my hands shot straight up in the air and I started yelling. I declared that day that MY GOD was still for me, not against me. The proclamation continued while I stated that "MY GOD had not changed and I would NOT doubt Him!!!!" I'm sure it was quite a scene to a passerby ... Franco driving with tears streaming down his face, music blaring, me - with my hands straight up in the air, screaming and crying. I wonder what God thought? I can only imagine that He was happy because His daughter FINALLY realized that her Father was not going to hurt her. That after all the years of serving Him she finally GOT Jeremiah 29:11 instead of just quoting it without the conviction of it being real.

I am here today to proclaim to you that God has not changed. The God that gave His SON to die for you is still relevant, alive and waiting to be found by you. If He is chasing you then please stop and let Him catch you. He is good, He is kind, He is loving, He is NOT what this world tries to make Him out to be. Believe me - I KNOW.

More to come .....
xoxoxox
Ann
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